Friday, August 24, 2018
Life is fantastic! Even though I’m sick and have challenges in my life every day, it’s good to belong to Christ and be his disciple. I’ve cut all the complications of life and made it easy to live. I believe in the Savior and know a divine love that permeates everything in my life. I live in a silent prayer all the time with self-transcendence and forsaking sin every day. I live in a heavenly peace that is there all the time, it has lifted ADHD and removed all the noise I had before. I’m still sick with diabetes 2 (from 2013), diabetic neuropathy in my feet, 3 active pro-laps since 1993, ear sous that I need to have knock-out pills to sleep. Furthermore, I take Nozinan to sleep for a long time. I have a slow stomach with acid problems and need to take medicine for it or else I get chest pain. I can not go far, have a scooter for it. I have concentration problems, so I go a lot in the apartment between the battles. Therefore, I am invalidity today. I have the lowest pension benefit due to the big holes in my resume. I went special class for children with challenges such as MBD (ADHD now) and was in a class of much sicker children. Everyone went straight to the disability insurance at the age of 18, but I wanted to try in the community. In the end, my IT consultant got a high salary and worked for more than 10 years and had an annual salary of 430,000 in 2001. I did not get the pressure and got sick in 2001. I tried and tried to work with just a loss for many years and 3 refusal of unsuccessful applications to NAV until 2017, then they gave up and I was granted disability insurance. But I am being punished for having tried me for a total of 17 years with good work and good salary. Those who went straight out in retirement have more than 5,000 more paid per. month than me !. So I’m bitter about it, because my work has cost me many personal losses and terminations. I have no family or girlfriend. It costs too much to have it. My love life has only cost money and has not always been good. Has three cohabitationes for a total of 22 years, and been kicked on the door in various ways with cutting results. So I’m over. Now I enjoy life alone with all the flaws, but have God and Jesus with me all the time. They give me a power and love I could never have found on myself, such as self operation. There is so much more than that. Thank you for taking the time to read this.